My past, my shadows, my darkness is haunting me back once again...Ever since the exams started, (that was last week...) I've been feeling guilty for I did not really give 100% commitment to my studies. The reason that I'm writing this is to ask myself, why the hell am I still fooling around when my parent had gave me everything that I ever wanted...
I want a laptop, my mum bought 1 for me. I want to study in IT field, my mum grant my wish, I want to change my hostel room because of some silly reasons, she helped me out. So why can't I grant my mum's wish now? She just wanted me to get good grades for my exam and I can't even fulfill this simple task. Not that I'm saying that I'm failing my test or anything, but my point is that I've not been a good son and I wish I could reverse the timeline so I can have a fresh start again. I'm sure all my friends (old or new) will know my attitude very well and I wish I could have done something about it. I wished that God or someone I know will give me some good advice on how to be a respectable person that could make my mum proud.
If anyone is kind enough to help this pathetic kid, please kindly leave an advice (I DON'T WANT ANY INSULTS, I KNOW WHO I AM OK? JUST GIVE ME SOME ADVISE!) in my chatbox or the comments ok? Signing off, Bluedrake a.k.a. Shippoukitsune
I want a laptop, my mum bought 1 for me. I want to study in IT field, my mum grant my wish, I want to change my hostel room because of some silly reasons, she helped me out. So why can't I grant my mum's wish now? She just wanted me to get good grades for my exam and I can't even fulfill this simple task. Not that I'm saying that I'm failing my test or anything, but my point is that I've not been a good son and I wish I could reverse the timeline so I can have a fresh start again. I'm sure all my friends (old or new) will know my attitude very well and I wish I could have done something about it. I wished that God or someone I know will give me some good advice on how to be a respectable person that could make my mum proud.
If anyone is kind enough to help this pathetic kid, please kindly leave an advice (I DON'T WANT ANY INSULTS, I KNOW WHO I AM OK? JUST GIVE ME SOME ADVISE!) in my chatbox or the comments ok? Signing off, Bluedrake a.k.a. Shippoukitsune
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