Ever since I've been told to retake my Maths 2 paper so I can advance to Degree, I've been trying very hard to score that subject. But none of that matters anymore... Nothing...
"Dear Andrew, I'm afraid that you won't be getting your foundation cert even if you are to complete the course and pass your maths 2 paper as we found out that your SPM did not get a credit for your maths. You can't go to degree either as well and here are the 2 options for you, retake SPM or get the hell out of this college......."
These words had been ringing over my head for 4 days now and I'm.... I'm feeling that all these things I had been working so hard on doesn't matter anymore. None of the things I do is going to matter now and I might as well get back to Ipoh to work. Is this my fate? Or is this a punishment for not good in maths? I am completely at lost here and I'm starting to lose all the will and faith that I have for myself. No matter what you all advise me, it's not going to work and I'm sinking deeper and deeper into depression each day. Every single day in my life is becoming more and more meaningless as I stare at the mirror. Just please make all these stop.... please.....
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After being inactive in blogging for almost 3 months, I feel that I want to blog again about my current life and share with everyone that is interested in reading it... Well first of all, I'm back to Sunway to get my foundation year final semester result and it wasn't that great. 3A's 1 fail and 1 more dunno wad score (but not fail...) and guess which one did I fail? Addmaths again of course... Haiz...
I don't really like the prospect of failing add-maths but it had already happened and I will face the truth. Sure I look ok and normal in front of everyone but deep inside me when I'm alone, I tend to cry myself to sleep for these past few days. It's very sad to see my other college friends passing and moving forward to degree course while I get to stuck in foundation for another 3 months + pay Rm1.6k just to retake add-maths. Recently, I've just met some of my old pals back in Sunway here and realize what a fool that I've been throughout my life. After much conversation, I have decided to move on and I will not give up my dreams because of 1 stupid subject that some people finds it amusing. I would like to thank all my friends that have given me the word of encouragement to me when I'm in difficult times and I promise I will be a better person in 2010. Thanks again and signing out,
I don't really like the prospect of failing add-maths but it had already happened and I will face the truth. Sure I look ok and normal in front of everyone but deep inside me when I'm alone, I tend to cry myself to sleep for these past few days. It's very sad to see my other college friends passing and moving forward to degree course while I get to stuck in foundation for another 3 months + pay Rm1.6k just to retake add-maths. Recently, I've just met some of my old pals back in Sunway here and realize what a fool that I've been throughout my life. After much conversation, I have decided to move on and I will not give up my dreams because of 1 stupid subject that some people finds it amusing. I would like to thank all my friends that have given me the word of encouragement to me when I'm in difficult times and I promise I will be a better person in 2010. Thanks again and signing out,
Bluedrake a.k.a. Shippoukitsune
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