Why is this keep happening to me.... WHY!?

Ever since I've been told to retake my Maths 2 paper so I can advance to Degree, I've been trying very hard to score that subject. But none of that matters anymore... Nothing...

"Dear Andrew, I'm afraid that you won't be getting your foundation cert even if you are to complete the course and pass your maths 2 paper as we found out that your SPM did not get a credit for your maths. You can't go to degree either as well and here are the 2 options for you, retake SPM or get the hell out of this college......."

These words had been ringing over my head for 4 days now and I'm.... I'm feeling that all these things I had been working so hard on doesn't matter anymore. None of the things I do is going to matter now and I might as well get back to Ipoh to work. Is this my fate? Or is this a punishment for not good in maths? I am completely at lost here and I'm starting to lose all the will and faith that I have for myself. No matter what you all advise me, it's not going to work and I'm sinking deeper and deeper into depression each day. Every single day in my life is becoming more and more meaningless as I stare at the mirror. Just please make all these stop.... please.....